Blue

I thought you were supposed to feel invincible and unstoppable after achieving a goal.

I can't explain it, but since the race I have been feeling right out of sorts. Lethergic, unmotivated, uninterested, feeling down.......

....I thought that I should probably do some research to get to the bottom of it, but then I didn't have the energy, and couldn't see the point.

I did half-read something about opoid-like things in your brain and running, and I think I might have got addicted to running a long way, and now I'm going through some kind of withdrawal, because I've been for plenty of runs since the race, and enjoyed them at the time, but I'm missing the buzz afterwards, it's like I can't do enough. 

So, as a true addict, I have arranged for some future fixes:

• 17.05.14: The Marafun, Orpington
• 12.07.14: The Lyke Wake 42 miles
• 23.08.14: The Thames Meander Marathon
• Next year: The LDWA annual 100 mile event, in Lancashire next year

But I wish the Woldsman race wasn't over! Perhaps that's the problem. Maybe I am thinking of the past and wishing for it to still be happening too much, and so am missing the good that could be/ actually is happening right now.. 

...so enough! It's been two weeks. I have to keep my amazing memories that  I have collected from the experience, and use them to direct my future!